How Broken Are We Waiting To Be? Hmmm?

 

 

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What I have learned from my life experiences has been invaluable and I would not want to change the access to knowledge it has given me for anything in the world. For me, that would be like turning off the light and returning to darkness.

 

 To be human is to create, and ultimately we become the person we choose to be and who we work towards creating. It is when our thoughts, words, actions, and behavior’s are all aligned that life becomes easier. Way easier!

 

 We, in human form, are the master/mistress, manager, and caretaker of all our cells, our thoughts, and our feelings. Here is where we do the best job we can at being the best us, with the knowledge that we have, and within the parameters of 21st century planet earth, while creating the future.

 

 All change IS opportunity.  Endings are essential for new beginnings to emerge. Suffering and chaos precede great changes. The way we are living IS incorrect for ourselves, simply as knowledge of what we are and of our needs, was not available to those who constructed our societies. 

In many cases these societal structures and ideas, needed to be put upon us, by use of force and fear of harm or death, as we knew inside ourselves it was not quite right..;)

 

 But now, we have all the wisdom in the world available to us, and we have all the means to put new decisions into place…..and all we need to do, is to use ourselves properly! 😉

 

 We are far too intelligent, and creative a species, to let ourselves – yes LET OURSELVES – be playing along with ridiculous errors of our ignorant British history….STILL! 

WE are CREATIVE beings extraordinaire, and this is the reason we have the size brain we do, that began all our superiority preoccupation and ‘waffle’ in the beginning!  The very intent at thought, creates the synaptic pathways along which they travel, within our brain. We can create ourselves out of anything, and ‘solution-seeking creativity’ is where we perform at our best.

The phenomenal fuss about the size of our brain, fills our history.  We should at least use it heh?;) 

WE can CREATE ourselves a better way. There is no need for us to be pandering along with inadequate, never appropriate systems and structures.  WE designed it.  WE can change it!  😀

Blessings.

 

Violence Makes No Sense For Humans.

Use_6I read it as create!!!!  Be all it is we all are, to add to it all, give all our sprecila skills, strengths and abilities!As Human Beings we are not actually meant to be violent to each other, BECAUSE we have language ability. We speak, there fore we are able to discuss anything, and especially nowadays, when we can literally speak one another’s language or know someone who can.  Even in the very rare occasion that we don’t – such as tribes of natural people’s living in the Amazon – we can easily make do, with all that we now know about each other.

Chimpanzees, a close relative also in the Primate family with a reckoned 98% identical genetics to us, require violence.  Chimpanzees can be invaded by another group, and nothing short of violence sees that them living through an invasion. They may even kill one another, pulling each other apart with bare hands.  They are not able to speak about it.  They do not have brains that can allow this.  

It makes no sense for human beings to be engaged in activities more suitable for another species entirely.  Our brains are the size they are, FOR our language ability, FOR our creation of language that we need to use. It is the very intent at thought that creates for us, the necessary neuron pathway. This is the reason it is the size it is,  It is designed to give us adequate ample space for whatever creation, of whatever we will need to say within our lives.  We always have the ability to create just the right thing to say for any situation. 

I honestly feel comfortable with humans of any language, and I prefer to learn of theirs, or do without a spoken one, rather than use any attempts at English.  I do find French to be my natural ‘filler’ language as I learn one, as French is a natural language that can fit with others, English – as it is an intellectual construct rather than a natural language for us – does not fit with others very well at all.  Before we shape anything into a word, we use a tone that carries meaning, and we can read faces/expressions/body language.  Certainly our language does not separate us at all….more our vocabulary…whatever the language.  When I travel, I tend to end up among those who have a similar vocabulary, and therefore a similar sense of priorities and interests.  The language difference may make finding these people a little trickier, but difficult and impossible are not the same thing at all..or even anywhere close!

Our Vocabulary = Our Intellectual Reasoning Ability.  Imagine all the words you know and can use to speak with, in a bag.  Then imagine the size the bag would need to be, taking up space within your head. This, is then what you have available for considering something.

If the bag is little, as it was with my mother – and I use that term in purely a descriptive sense –  you have room to consider only the basics, or what is in front of you directly.  This smaller size vocabulary is where you will find most root chakra, survival core behaviors of violence, such as gangs, mercenaries, hardcore violence.  Basic survival vocabulary.

The larger the vocabulary, the more complicated the reasons for violence need to be, for those humans to bond with it as an idea.  They need to be able to make elaborate excuses for such a basic survival core base chakra primitive activity, before it makes any sense to partake in at all.   The larger the vocabulary, more complicated ideas, reasons or excuses need to be given to engage people in it, such as is promoted when countries are at war or religions are at war.

Survival of something, is usually required for a reason, and also rewards of payment in some way, albeit a wage, allowance, guaranteed security or ‘career, guaranteed career or allowance for your spouse, guaranteed education for your children,  respect, and or honour.  

But really, there is nothing our language ability cannot solve. And, if respect is naturally returned to all humans – or naturally reclaimed as we do need to give it away – then what appeal do any of the above have for us?

Warring is just habitual.  Warring is just familiarity, and has been going on for so long without reprieve that it is relied on as a mainstay for the economy.  These are the reasons it is still occurring.  It is a regular habit, and no one has looked at alternatives to this.   The English language has relied upon violence – and invasion – in order to spread.  The wives of soldiers were commonly teachers to be able to ‘educate’ new British colony people’s, as was the case in my own British family.  My very brutal mother, was a soldier and a teacher.

The state of the world and countries as we know it, has formed out of a reliance upon violence, violent invasion. and continual warring.  Countries actually engaged in combat are just the tip of the iceberg , or think of the combat as where the waves hit the shore, and the rest of the world is the ocean behind the wave.   Many countries also are involved by benefiting in some way perhaps monetarily from supply and involvement.  We tend to only hear reports about, or see on T.V the ‘front’, hands on part of it.  These people can feel very isolated from the world, as though no one knows or cares.

Many situations we have going on in the world, are from decisions made in haste for assistance with a war.  Entire people’s have been uprooted and placed in the lands of others, as an exchange for another countries assistance in a war.  Then these people are at war against each other, even to this day!  But, it was not even their doing to be moved around like pieces on someone’s game board!  They were both equally disrespected historically and I do not consider their issue is with each other at all.  Yes I am speaking of Palestine and Israel for this example. 

It just comes down to the simple reason that it is habit, and put in place by ignorance.  Our ancestors did not know enough about ourselves.  Warring and violence established as a way of life by our ignorant ancestors is still at play.  Ill-health, misery and poverty were the reasons fear-filled, minimal vocabulary human beings, travelled the world in search of more for themselves.  They had no other ideas, of how to better their situation.  They were very undeveloped inwardly, as they used all their available creativity on developing inventions.  Those of us in hotter countries than England, had greater opportunity for inner or self-development, as conditions were more suitable in a climate sense.

Being cold, and needing to constantly be doing something to keep warm, sparked these of us on, to think of more ways to make things better…more ways to improve a hard gruellling situation.   They were desperate, desperately unhappy, and with mentally ill royalty ruling over them!;)  

My Aunt has a saying hanging in her kitchen, that I always covered with a kitchen towel when I was there.  It read “If you want a helping hand, look at the end of your own arm.”  This is still the very real belief underlying much in Britain.  It is the most un-community minded, unhelpful ‘culture’ of people I have experienced.  They did not ever have, in their entire history, an era of no violence.   Countries invaded by Britain, often only needed to become violent in reaction to their experiences of Britain. To ‘out- do the British’ I call it.;)   They have within their history, memories and behavioral practices and even entire philosophies, that are peaceful and healthy.   Britain does not have this.

My Grandma had a large collection of dolls in National costume from all around the world.  It was contained in special cabinets, in pride of place in her living room, and it further sparked my interest in how the history of the world and human development had taken shape.  Britain’s National costume was only military uniforms, but the others showed wonderful designs of color and imagination, and definitely, many various roles and pride-filled activities, aside from warring behaviors.

Instead of relying upon them, relying upon English speakers, we need to be helping THEM.  Instead of acquiescing to a false ‘better way’, we need to be guiding THEM.  Instead of enabling more ignorance to be in place, we need to be knowing of ourselves.  Instead of pandering to them, we need to be giving them direction.

It is just way easier to continue as is now with this warring, though it is not sensible, effective, respectful, knowledgeable or kind.  It takes courage to break away from what is familiar for us.  But this is what we need to do. It is ridiculous that we as a human species are carrying out activities more suitable to chimpanzees and allowing ourselves to decline in ability.

Everyone needs to consider this, as we all affect one another, our energy all overlaps, our activities all have consequence.  This just was not known of, or understood when the habit of warring was put in place.  It is a bad human habit, that needs to be prevented..like nail biting or like picking your nose.  It is beneath us, and it is holding us back from what we actually, really came here on earth to do!

Blessings 🙂

When Pain Is All We Know.

Use add to pain!!used919059_10151343972956746_757466063_o (1)I know pain.  I have scars on my body that were put there by the hand of those in my own family trying to kill me, dating back to when I was only one year old.  

Many many more attempts and scars and frustrated punches later, I had pain inflicted upon me daily unless I was lucky enough to escape it, by consciously avoiding it at every turn.

 I became an expert on it from the life I then created for myself.  I can relate to the soft tissue pain from skin trauma to muscular pain, bone pain, nerve pain, all the ones in between, and the differences in ratios therein, with regard to pain threshold and intensity.  I became an expert on emotional pain, psychological pain and grief until I overloaded and numbed out, in a zombie- like depression.  I became an expert on how to ‘bear it’  or go through it, how to attract it, heal from it, then finally how to stop attracting it and be done with it!

Pain was an everyday experience for me and I learned a lot from the effort that was required on my part to change this in my life.  It took years.  It took years and years to realize that I was attracting it into my life, and how to stop it.  I came very close to not making it as I was in imminent real danger countless time.   My last near death experience was what it took.

Pain can be so familiar, trauma can be familiar, suffering, anxiety and stress can be familiar.  

But, when something is familiar, the bigger problem is… it becomes what we create, what we expect, what we imagine, what we anticipate and prepare for.  It is our entire container of perception.  And, by doing so, we create it!!!  

When all we know is pain, it can be really hard and extremely challenging to let it go.  It can be totally new to learn we do not need to feel it.  It can be a totally foreign concept to even consider that there can be a time when there is not regular daily pain.

It can seem impossible, that we are meant to feel pain,  we are meant to just take anything.  This was my experience.  I felt destined to feel it, that I was meant to, because I could cope, that it was ‘my lot’ in life to be in constant pain, that I and my feelings didn’t matter.  In fact my mother had ordered me “Consider yourself last, if at all.”

It can be extremely difficult to grow accustomed to knowing life doesn’t have to be that way.  We can be so familiar with pain that to not have any can be unheard of and unimaginable.  We feel it, so we subconsciously replace it with more.  The more pain we are used to, the more pain we can take, the more pain we feel we are meant to take.

My mother even commanded me I had to “grin and bear it” that I “should be able to stick a fork into my leg under the table and not show it on my face.”

The thing is…the important truth is…is that it is us who creates this pain for ourselves.  We are so familiar with it, we subconsciously require it, to return to our ‘norm’ to our ‘familiarity’.  How can we be delivered something that is not pain causing, if we do not allow for it?  WE must put effort into going against the flow of ourselves, within ourselves!

It requires strength and enough intellect to alter your own behavior, to consciously decide that is what you are going to do, and to act on it repeatedly.  Until no pain is the new familiar, then and only then does it takes less energy, when your being has achieved a new equilibrium.  At its most simplistic, it is all about energy management, and moving to a place of a raised energetic vibration, with new behavioral pathways created and reinforced inside your brain. 

There are techniques to free ourselves of residual pain-attracting energy held, and all ‘grief, hurt and distress’ held.   Some of it can be done without passing through our sensory systems again, but we need to be prepared feel it through, and there is nothing so bad or awful inside ourselves that we cannot take, for it is ourselves.  

Once we decide, and prepare for it in a quiet time and space taken  for ourselves to do this ‘transformational work’ , we can ‘watch’ it pass through us objectively.  It is nothing to fear, as it is just us, waiting to be loved and protected by us.  This is actually our job!   To feel it, and to revisit it, in a careful way, so that it may leave you FOREVER, does that not sound attractive?;)  Techniques I favor most are the subject of another writing, too involved for this overview article.

Do it for yourself, free yourself from all that unnecessary pain baggage!  Do it for me.  Do it for all of us.  Do it for our Earth.  🙂 

On a personal level:   Know that there is a bond between all of us who have experienced tremendous pain and suffering.  There is nothing to be ashamed of, after our pain causing experiences, we have this potential holding of  debris energy that can be traded in for growth, further strength and greater wisdom.  Any space that we create as it leaves us, is naturally replaced with white light vibration – the highest frequency vibration – enabling us to feel lighter with a greater capacity for joy.

On a global level :   From a place of pain-free inner peace and happiness, is where we create at our best, without preconceived judgement and past pain filled projections interfering with our ability to perceive clearly in the here and now.

Remember ‘We reap what we sow’?  Do we then not ‘Sow what we reap’?  Far more difficult indeed to suddenly change crops WITHOUT careful conscious decision-making and preparation.  The same with our pain.  

We are inside a nervous system for a purpose, and pain – which I define as an ‘unpleasant sensation’ – is information we are giving ourselves.   It is a message from our body and from our higher, more aware selves, to us the conscious one, that something is not quite right.   It is meant to cause us to take action, to do something to alter another thing, so we do not need to go through ‘it’ again.    

This, is when attracting more of the same becomes obviously an ignorant and ridiculous result!  : )

Blessings, Amelia

The Power of Words.

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We bring what we say into our lives.

Whether we ‘spend’ our words on the subjects of war, death or control, or on subjects such as love, peace, togetherness, joy and good health.

What we give our breath to, our essence, our energy, our intent and then formulate into a series of words with meaning, ACTIVATES it.  This vibration creates more of the same vibration.

It is all energy, it is all continually vibrating resonance.  It is all teeny weeny particles outside of our human field of vision.  Not yet common knowledge, only due to one of the ignorant rulings of Victorian era Britain “nothing exists unless there is a tool by which it can be measured.” still underlying the framework of all our societal structure.

Either energy raises to a higher more loving vibration: a + vibration, lighter and higher and faster moving, or, it lowers to a more fear, hate, loathing, distress vibration:  a – vibration, low and dense.

A ‘spell’ that we are more familiar with from tales of witches, is nothing more than a carefully chosen series of words spoken with intent.  Our own words have this affect.  We ourselves activate our ability,  by consistency to speaking our truth.  This is called having integrity with our word.  

As humans we have speech as our special ability.  For too many years from ignorance only, many of us have lost the connection of what this actually means for us.  I am passionately committed to reminding us, I have lived my life to do this and I fully believe we as a species need to learn HOW TO SPEAK all over again!   

It is our speech ability – or lack thereof – that is behind much of the inadequate, or superficial relating, between ourselves.  If we can talk about something, to reach an understanding with honest tone and well chosen words THERE IS NOTHING WE CANNOT SOLVE.  This applies equally to an issue in a nuclear family as it does to one of global consequence between countries of different languages/faiths/cultures. 

Choose your words as though your life depended upon it.  This is the truth in a nutshell!  

Always remember that silence is better than a word not chosen carefully and spoken in truth, and claim for yourself the confidence to do this.  Raised as I was in total lies, with a mother  who advised me that ‘it did not matter what was really happening, but only what you had others believe’, made it easy for me to see how that choice had stunted her development and ability.  I chose a path of total truth and distanced myself from her as much as I could.

Speak as though your words were creating your reality, creating what is going to happen in your life next, and of the quality of that.  

I promise, these efforts only give way to a whole series of more beneficial rewards that await you as you develop self mastery!;)

 🙂  Blessings. 

Leftover’s Anyone?;)

I mean really, even for a meal, is this anyone’s first choice?

Let’s get rid of the leftovers and serve up something new.  Fresh and new!   Something attractive and appealing to all our senses.   Let’s replace the leftovers and serve up a platter of gourmet all-culture specialty instead! 

You see this is not about a meal at all.  We are living in leftovers, lying in the leftovers, wading through, driving through, and enabling the leftovers.  We carry them around with us...everywhere.   

We are swimming in it, eating it, being intimate with it, and even learning it as new information!   Leftovers from ignorant structures created  and implemented by our ancestors.

Let’s replace them and serve up a platter of something fresh, something suitable for all our occasions, all our tastes, wants, needs and desires.  Something suitable for now, and healthy too! 🙂 

Out with the leftovers, and in with the new and improved!

WE made it up, lets make up something else instead.  We made it ALL up, for goodness sake!!!

To Be Human is to create, and solution-seeking creativity is our specialty!   That is when our brilliance comes out, when we are firing on all cylinders, unhindered by any rules and restrictions.  It is when our intellect, our energy, our spirit, and our soul is all working to the maximum, and when all our biological components are activated.  Nothing holds us back…no rules put in place, no dogma.   We are suddenly free – arguably our freest ever feeling – when we are able to do what it is that we are born to do…to create.  

We are at our most efficient at these times, in our ‘default’ setting.  This is when we come up with all manner of schemes, all crime as we know it, is human solution-seeking creativity being put into place.   Goodness knows this may still occur here and there as the situation we have is just not adequate for so many.   Better surely, we harness everyone’s interest and energy to create something better, better, best!

Everything we have done as a species, and everything we are continuing to experience, has been the result of this solution-seeking creativity…an individual’s, a community’s, a government’s, a country’s or a coalition of countries.

 However, we have not yet put in place solution-seeking creativity for all of us and our planet.   We have not yet formed a coalition of human wisdoms!

That is what we need to do.   Blessings 🙂

Our Most Natural Human State.

Our Most Natural Human State.

I agree with this wonderful image by Mike Dooley, and I cannot emphasize enough how spending as much time in this state as possible will positively affect EVERYTHING on Earth.

This allows for it to occur you see, and by design, is our natural human state.
We are meant to be able to be present, open and ready to what is happening NOW.

Holding preconceived expectations, judgement, anticipations, worries, are all ‘intellectual reality’ waffle, going on inside your head ONLY.

Many of us have learned to do this as habit, from the ignorance of our history. But of course, that is then what we create, and add energy to creating, on a large populous scale.

Better indeed to be in a state of believing something fabulous is going to happen….and so it can be! 🙂

There is no ‘No Consequence’

Much that we still do, dates back to when planet Earth was presumed flat.

Things could be dumped in bodies of water where ever, seas, rivers, because it would be gone, ‘cleared up’, ‘suddenly tidy’.;)  Or so it was thought in totally ignorance.   Ignorance is not an insult , it is defined as ‘without knowledge or information.’

But, we know now, we are on a globe, a ball, a sphere.  We know a circle has no end at all, but is a continuum.

And we know, that what we put as ‘junk’ from one country will end up in another.

Pooh sticks.   This was a game made up by Winnie The Pooh, from A.A Milne’s The House At Pooh Corner, first published in Britain, in 1928.

When characters Winnie the Pooh and Piglet played on a bridge, Pooh dropped sticks onto one side of the bridge, and then ‘lo and behold’ they appeared the other side!  Piglet and Pooh loved this game!

Now if a little bear and a piglet can figure out the movement of water, surely humans can?;)

Copernicus published his theories and calculations in 1543, of how the Earth moved around the Sun and not the other way around, proving it’s shape.

But we, are still treating the Earth as though it is flat.  Even though the evidence of us knowing of the movement of water is in children’s books in the previous century!

Common sayings:  “What goes around comes around”, “He’ll get his” etc  are evidence that we know there is always a consequence or a reaction to an action.

I saw a quote “We all reflect the same sun” and how true is.   I found it a quote that had me feeling very bonded with the rest of humanity…as we are.   Sure your part of Earth may be in ‘night’ as our planet turns, but the sun is the same.  We are all part of the energy of the Earth, and what is required is that we know this, to alter our perspective and designs!

Altering our designs to incorporate new, current and ignored wisdom is not difficult.   

We made it up!   We can make up something else!!!!   To Be Human is to create, afterall…

And while the wiser of us know, we are even all interconnected energetically, basic systems of operation, are many centuries out of date, regardless of scientific discoveries following undisputed scientific method.  : )Amazing isn’t it? All of us. I am reflecting the same sun as you where ever you are. Hello!;)

Our Special Human Skill.

To be Human is to create. And by design, solution-seeking creativity is our specialty.

With our brain the size it is to enable the laying of new thought patterns and connections, we literally CAN CREATE ourselves out of anything!

Everything we humans are experiencing is the result of solution-seeking creativity, an individual’s, a community’s, a government’s, or a coalition of countries.  As we go, we create, for better or for worse.

All crime we know of,  is someone’s solution-seeking creativity, that is not acceptable for one of many reasons, bringing a negative reaction to the perpetrator to discourage it from being done again.

Much that is being done today from someone’s/something’s creativity is bringing negative reactions, only, the one controlling the creativity is not experiencing it.  It may be beneficial for some of us, but not for all of us.   Sometimes it is very beneficial for some of us, and totally devastating for others of us.

All that is required, is for us to put in place for the first time, solution-seeking creativity for all of us, including our home planet.

All that is required, is for us to put in place for the first time solution-seeking creativity that incorporates all the knowledge we have available to us.

All that is required is for us to put in place for the first time solution-seeking creativity with the intent and the design for a big picture perspective.    NO more single country, economy, continent or language consideration, but a global, entire Earth management one.

We can lay claim to being Human Beings who are designed to create solutions for ourselves.   And we can lay claim to the fact that we as Human Beings know that we need to take the action that we are designed to take! 

How convenient for all of us that this solution-seeking creativity is our special skill! : )

Human Being Expert. Me? Oh Yes.;)

I have been studying the human being my entire life, at first, for my own very survival.  “I have studied the Human, in order that I might be one”, I heard myself say to a guy in Barcelona, who smiled.

The bookshelf in the family home in Hampshire, England, had the selection of authoritative nonfiction books of the time, such as ‘The Last Two Million Years” and other biology and medical dictionaries that I was reading before I started school. To understand, and make sense of the cruel nonsense around me, was my motivation, and to answer the eternal “Why was I born?” and “How can there be a God?” questions.

I was not permitted to speak as “children are to  be seen and not heard” so I was not given chance to develop normal speech, but then ordered to speak on command and made to alter my voice to one that was approved of.  This was so traumatic for me that I blocked it out, for years, only to be released when another significant trauma allowed it forth.  It explained my vocal difficulties all throughout my life, which has given me tremendous insight of what language is, it’s very point and purpose, and it’s role in determining us.

Allowed to read and watch TV, I became an expert observer, as the difference I noticed in a facial expression change, could make the difference between life and death for me.   Considered too ugly and an evolutionary backward step – as I did not look Caucasian enough – with eyes “too chinesey” and a face and body “too negro”,  she instructed my brother to kill me and I survived one attempt after another, and was constantly nursing injuries.

There was a seemingly endless list of ridiculous sayings that were followed to the letter, that I was governed by, such as not being “worth the clothes on my back” and “at the bottom of the pecking order.” I existed in an illusion of a ‘good home’, as my mother – who I knew as ‘monster’ cared enormously, and only, of how others viewed her.

What was really going on, did not matter at all, if nobody knew, she thought.  I learnt of why and how, and the consequences of this, to a life path.   I was told lies by her, with the insistence that it was true, which was just not a situation that was tolerable. It confused me and made no sense, so I learnt easily that truth, or “adherence to what is” as I define it, was vital to me and my development. She told me outright one time, in an attempt to sway me to her thinking, that “It didn’t matter what is, only what people believe, is”   She turned to me once after an event trying “THAT, didn’t happen. ” I knew to distance myself from her even further…

My father left me in very early years, in a place I only knew as ‘the crying room’ of a British childcare facility. Up until that point, he had been my primary care giver, and I was attempting to form speech from his Hungarian singing.  He was instructed to stop singing to me – I can still recall this clearly – and he moved to Australia to live with my mother’s Aunt on her orchard in Batlow,    In Australia, he could earn a higher wage than in England, and while he paid the mortgage, my mother ‘looked after’ the children.

It was a situation where how I held a knife and fork, was more important than the role of food intake.  No free self-expression was allowed me at all, but to ‘follow orders’.  As to an activity undertaken, as to the position I held my body in, to even what expression I was allowed to be holding on my face.
I was forced to sit for long periods of time, on a hard chair, staring into a mirror, until I could hold an approved fake smile, and hold my face, in an unnatural position, that she found the most ‘tolerable’.  So tormented was I from this, that I became very interested in the man known as “elephant man’ and I adopted his technique of covering his face with a cloth, to avoid torment.  The relief was short-lived in my case, with a mean toned “what face are you making under that, take it off!”

It was about ‘making a face’ instead of ‘being a face’. Is not our face to show our true expression?  It was all so obviously wrong to me. There was no idea of what was important, critical, sensible, necessary, unnecessary, ridiculous, trivial or nonsense, to life, at all.   And all of it done with a chronic superiority complex, and with a “you don’t know how lucky you are…”  I ran away at five yrs old but returned myself and unpacked my little case, as there was nowhere else to go.
Only a while after I had started school did the attempts on my life fade out, as her plan changed. My doing well at school, so she would look an even better mother, became the new one, so I would “earn my keep”.

I wanted to find out WHAT ON EARTH WAS GOING ON.   That my mother, or be it any human being, could have become like this, when I was surrounded by a natural world that had animals still exhibiting care and following a natural sense and order.

There was no illness to describe her’s in the Medical book.  She was only doing everything that she thought she should be doing.  And, everything that she thought she could get away with doing, to have the best life that she could have for herself.   I could see easily that she was a product of her teachings, of her time, and of her parents teachings.  I would intuitively know that insults she screamed at me, were ones given her as a child, as she did, obediently to the letter, ‘what she was told’ and ‘told of’.

So, I became an acute reader of the faces of my family, the eyes, tone of voice, of frequency, all behaviors, and of feelings,  in my need to determine truth and safety for me.  My brother had time alone with her, and I would know another idea was coming, and when she had planned his next action.  I grew able to easily determine a lying face from a truthful one.

My desperate seeking of this clarity, enabled me to learn of the real needs of the Human Being to sustain us in health, of the illusions that have caused these to have become forgotten, and the whys, the causes, and of the consequences of this.  In other words, what had happened historically, and why my family was the way it was.

I learned also, that the place I went to as a child to get away, is the place that people meditate for years to get to.   It is well worth it, as it gives you other information that can only be reached from experience of this.  It enables you to receive the rewards of heightened senses, giving an improvement all round in receptivity to life.
I learned that I read at 450words/min when I was 12, but that was the limit of the test, that was given only to pass time when it was raining one day at a`primary school in Australia.  I started school in England, where my knowledge of the work as the smartest child in the class only determined where I sat in the classroom, at the speedboat or rowboat table.;)

I learned that I can pick up languages faster than most, assisting my studies with my cross cultural ability, from the Hungarian/bilingual beginning I had as a baby.  Hungarian is not like any other language with its full range of sounds, helped also by my sound sensitivity, and my pitch ability as a singer and natural musician. Though I do not consider myself fluent in any language, save that the languages of love, music and dance, I can speak, or ‘pull’ from over twenty of them.  This has allowed me insight into other language groups of human studies, providing me with a broad base of how we differ as ‘breeds’.

I am a ‘sound healer’ also, since my life journey passed through into the meta-physical, and I learnt of how I was helped through so much, by the intuitive sounding I had done since in a cot, until forbidden to do that with a “Stop making that noise child.”  It helps me to realize the point of voice, of languages at their core vibration, and what this means to us.  I learned that I also had other intuitive healing abilities that had enabled me to effectively counteract/reverse/heal, a large number of the misguided ‘non-teachings’ I was ‘taught’.;)

Being an Empath is something I relate to being, and my sensitivities to energy, my being able to read and feel another’s energy, together with all I have studied and experienced, allows me to know what is missing in the education system and general knowledge.

A life that begins with orders to ‘consider yourself last, if at all”, required me to reach a stage of choice, and do a complete turn around, to not attract further events of suffering to me aka The Law of Attraction.  I have been through, & healed through, much.  Attracting another, but very severe car accident, saw me need to heal myself from extensive, severe, multiple injuries and I further learned of what was currently known and unknown of the human being, and more of myself.  This accident took me from University, but I had found tertiary education too limiting of my interests, so I designed my own studies, from my bed, which I included with my full-time physical rehabilitation.

My studies and reading I grouped into three sections; ‘What we know we are”, “Why things are the way they are”, and “What we really are”, to give structure to my task.  I take occasion to define words carefully.
I find many could now benefit from what I know, as it seems that Humanity itself is going through the very thing I had to figure out and sort out, as a young child, only on a much bigger scale!!;)
I continue this study throughout my life, which takes me far and wide, as committed journeys do.  As I am what assesses what I see, as it passes through the files behind my eyes, I find my perspective comes easily.  And, I also absolutely know, that difficult and impossible are not the same thing at all!

It brings me pleasure to share the tales, adventures and discoveries with you.  I would like to prevent anyone from needing to experience what I have, but to be able to share in the wisdom of it, so their own lives can be greater and easier.

‘The answer to the meaning of life, the Universe & everything’ is not 42, as the Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy told us;), and we simply cannot caretake of ourselves and our planet, or live as intended, if we do not know what we are.

If we want a dog, we can read a book all about the dog, and different breeds of dog.  Where’s the book on Being Human?  My thought’s exactly;)

Amelia : )

What Stress Really Is.

I am noticing how commonly – and inaccurately – the term stress is being used.

In one day I heard two different people say to me, after only a very short conversation, and who didn’t know me at all:

“Don’t stress…”, “I don’t want to stress you…” , ” I can see it is stressing you…” and “I am sorry it has stressed you..”  !!!

When, all I did was to share a thought on something.

I became aware at this point, how frequently the word stress must be being used in every day speech.

Having a thought or a feeling is not ‘stress’ at all.  We are designed to have feeling and thought reactions, however unpleasant we find them.  They remain simply that, a thought or a feeling.  They do not go through a special metamorphosis becoming another term ‘stress’ before we speak of them.;)

‘Stress’ is an ailment, a condition that comes about only from an ‘unmanaged’ thought or feeling.  A thought or feeling that has been neglected and left unprocessed, or ignored and no action taken.

An upsetting thought or feeling is not stress.

‘Stress’ or ‘strain’ of us occurs only when thoughts and feelings are mismanaged.

We are designed to have thoughts and feelings – however, and whatever they are – good or bad.  Stress occurs later on, when something goes wrong with the processing of said thought or feeling.

‘Stress’ or ‘strain’ occurs not from an issue, thought or feeling at all, but from a thought or feeling left, undealt with, to stagnate in us.

Our energy gets disturbed, and becomes stuck, and our body will  react,  as it is designed to do, when our energy changes.  We react by breathing differently, and our circulation changes almost instantly.

We are energy.  We are designed to flow…

Leaving anything – any aspect of ourselves – to sit unused, or be neglected, causes the potential for ill-health.  The part of us that is stagnant, unflowing, unclear of ‘junk debris’, neglected or unused IS where an ill-ness will take up residence.

Naming anything at all, and using it’s name, is part of the road to manifesting it.

Using the term stress will make it harder for you to keep it out of your life.  In fact, using the term, makes it a part of your life.

Isn’t it perhaps an ‘agitated feeling’ you feel?  Or ‘angry’ or ‘annoyed’ or ‘fed-up’ or ‘hurt’ by something?  Or a simple “I get a bad feeling.” or  “I have a bad thought about that.”

Maybe you feel your energy ‘rise’ as you think, or share of something that happened to you, to another.  This isn’t stress, it is your energy telling you how it makes you feel.

We react to things.  It is healthy for us to have reactions to things.

If you can used another word – instead of stress – I recommend you do so.

Real stress itself can also be healed, and it begins with not adding more to the knot of old, past, remnant, junk issues/thoughts and feelings in and around ones energy.

Have fun! : )