My comments on the ‘Race / Intelligence’ debate on TV.

I was at first extremely surprised that this topic could still be warranted TV show coverage, than realised “Of course!”

None of what I am sharing here is common enough knowledge yet, as there simply has been no further investigation into ourselves, to bring light to this matter for popular interest! 

I find the more complex a ‘home’ language, the more intelligent the people. 

Language, distinguishes us as human beings, then the opposable thumb.  It is language ability that makes some humans more intelligent than others, not the concept of ‘race.’ 

The more languages we know the smarter we get.  The more words we know, the larger capacity that we contain within. 

As it is our very intent at thought, that creates the neuron synaptical pathways within our brain, the more we learn, the larger a framework – or word map  or shelving unit for storage;) –  we create inside ourselves.

Our vocabulary becomes the roots of our created reality tree. : )

The more languages we know, we effectively magnify our total neuron capacity.  A language is so much more than words you see… 

A language is also the knowing of what to say and when, customs, behaviours, culture, and so on.  Within the ‘shelving unit’ or ‘files’ inside our consciousness, we need make room, for the word of all those things, in another language.

I was very injured on time, which included a head injury resulting in a loss of consciousness.  The neurotest given me, by a specialist unknown to me, as the one that gave them the best idea of my pre-injury intellect, was one on pronunciation of words. 

I was told it did not matter whether I knew the word – or not – just how I chose to pronounce it.  From this, I also gathered  that language ability is the most accurate determiner of intellect used today scientifically.

In Australia last  year after school results were known, it was documented how much better ‘immigrant’ – or children with English as a second language – performed in the results.  It was the subject of a tv show also.

It was mistakenly believed that it was due to foreign children being better students, or having greater work ethics instilled in them, as to why they were smarter. 

Certainly these qualities assist, but they are simply smarter anyway because they know more words, their neuron capacity fills a greater space, than their ‘English- derivitive-no-other-language’ fellow students. 

Within the same language,  just say two people had the same vocabulary also, it becomes the greater creativity and other learnings undertaken, that then increase brain use and therefore capacity, leading to one being smarter than the other.

Before I studied us, I studied every animal I came across.  I noticed my pets, from mice to dogs, all became smarter the more I trained them.

‘Race’ was a simplistic way of classifying human beings into four groups: ‘Caucasian’, ‘Negroid’, ‘Mongoloid’ and ‘Asian’, according to physical appearance. 

There are many variations within a ‘Race’, and  I find that we are ‘Breeds’ rather than a race of four.   Breeds that are determined largely by language groups.

Certainly there are greater physical similarities between humans breeds found within those classification categories called ‘Race’, but on its own ‘Race’ is not adequate or sufficient.

To expand upon and improve the current classification order with Human Beings /Home Sapiens, I suggest in addition to the standard:

Kingdom; Phylum; Class; Order; Family; Genus; Species  we add: Breed; Language.  ( I don’t feel it even necessary to include ‘race’  though it could fit between ‘species’ and ‘breed’.)

When I meet someone I like to know their blood lines (heritage) on both side and their ‘home’ language.   I find this the most helpful information to know more of someone, and it has proven reliable and consistent.    

I have known, dated or befriended, all races and many breeds of humans.  It is their vocabulary and language quantity that makes them smarter than the rest.;)

I do not think a greater effort of classifying Human Beings was seriously entered into, as the motivation for it, came from fear and insecurity, rather than a position of loving curiosity.;) 

Classification was carried out with the intent to make possible, the justification for theft, of land, inhabited by people already.  

An outcome was desired, and then a reality contrived to make it possible.  People were found to be not worthy of consideration, because of their appearance.

Historically and traditionally, the British used ridicule or derogatory language words to ‘bring down’ those they feared, or felt threatened by.

It is a known strategy also within the military.   It has been demonstrated that a ridiculing, rather than a respectful or honourable way of treating people, leads to a more successful occupation or victory.

Soldiers are then assisted by a feeling of righteousness or ‘good triumphing over evil’ and these are helpful energies that can make light of hard work.

We know now in science, how it is important to be impartial when conducting studies.  My own scientific background taught me that studies undertaken objectively and with no attachment to the result, makes for the better , more reliable, and trustworthy result.

The concept of ‘Race’ to describe other breeds of humans came about from a need, not an objective observation.

The use of judgement words, such as “superior” and “inferior”, that are ‘solution- seeking creations’, demonstrate a very strong attachment to the result.

Definitely the ‘Race’ concept was brought into popularity at a time when another ‘race’ was on, the race to take over the rest of the lands on earth. 

To get the land that became ‘Australia’, Britain was in a competitive race by sea with France in the 18th century, which Britain ‘won’. 

Was it with such a fixed determination, that the word ‘race’ was so impressed into the minds of these folk, that they used the word ‘race’ here also?;)  Quite possibly.   

Maybe it was even a ‘slip of the tongue’ and they were referring to the ‘race’ to obtain lands in competition with another language group/breed.  Maybe it was from the British like, to ‘make life easier for yourself’, to use this new, common and frequently used word, ‘race’, to help name the other Peoples that had been discovered.

Historically, the English have always been, very fixated on physical appearance, how things look, and how things ‘appear to be’.

We must remember the “Might Is Right” jargon of the time, to validate a situation taken by force.  We know now, that it isn’t necessarily right at all, or clever to think so.

Using the invader’s common strategy of ridicule, it would be far easier, and upon seeing the advantage – coming quite naturally to them also, given their propensity for this, and also of ‘complaining’ – to discredit an entire populus, than to do it one at a time. 

Much easier to disempower a race of people, than to deal with these strapping, stronger, physically in better shape, ‘Equal Men’ one at a time!;) 

The English language is much more ‘word thick’ today than in the 18th century, and quite likely this is as complex a thinking process that occurred:

“Oooh golly…LOOK!!!.  Look at his spear… and he’s not wearing any clothes…”   

Then:  “Spear?  No gun?   Not very smart.   He’s not wearing any clothes….must be a lesser man than we.”

This sight would have been an enormous shock, and enormously threatening.  Familiarity at this time was to react from a place of fear, as the Britain they had left behind was a cold, poverty stricken, gruelling place of ill-health and misery. 

It would have been overwhelming for them to see such a healthy, naked man so comfortable in his own skin, with such blatant sexual acceptance, when they were not allowed to mention their own body parts in polite company.;)   

A more ‘conscious’ (and intelligent?;))  group, given the same sight may have gone “Wow, how beautiful..look at their comfort with themselves and natural living skills.  What fine specimens and how fortunate to be able to live so freely in such a climate…”

Many of the English words to describe other people of differing breeds and origins have been banned popularly as they were found Internationally, to be derogatory, insulting and nonsensical to use.   (The energetic injury we get from words I go into in another writing.)

The English language has always been short of words, in comparison with others and has needed to add to its stock of words as it went along through history. 

It needed to adopt words from other languages, as those words simply did not exist, within its own language.  This made the people speaking it, therefore, intellectually, not as capable as those who’s languages had a greater- or more extended- vocabulary.

English is one of the more simplistic of all the languages, and why as a second language it becomes easy, as it is so much easier than a ‘home’ language. It also does not fit in well with the other languages, and I go into more detail in other writings.

My mother was Caucasian, the Race that classified the others, putting itself at the top.

My mother’s vocabulary was severely limited.  She operated in a very concrete fashion, fixated on what was in front of her.  She had trouble understanding much that was not obvious to her way of thinking.  She had enormous difficulty with abstract thought, and, or perhaps because, she was so regimented.

By this time language had been strictly controlled in English life.  Hard for other language groups to fathom – in English language society – the topics of sex, religion and politics, were not considered appropriate for social conversing: “There are three things you never talk about…” my mother told me.

Also, “social grooming & etiquette” had men and women, or ‘gentlemen and ladies’ given advice of topics of conversation to learn, for society.  For example, a young woman undertaking ‘social grooming  advancement’, may learn a conversation topic such as flower arranging.   

Thanks to the above language control measures, speaking had all but been disconnected from any idea of creating a reality for a human existence…;)

My mother’s social life was practically non-existent, had always been limited, and her life very structured and rigid. Her own creativity was severely and chronically stifled.

By contrast my father would take me as a baby to meet with his Hungarian friend.   Conversation would roll, and was like a lullaby to me, and when he wasn’t speaking his home language or singing, he was whistling while he worked.;)

At five years old I knew from my mother, that I was only half English, and that I was half Caucasian,  and half Mongoloid race.”   The tone of voice she used was derogatory, and in judgement, and she went on to say I would always be heavier than her.;)

She would look me over with narrowed eyes telling me my eyes were “too Chinesey”, my backside and face shape “too negro”, my head shape “too asian”.  She insinuated I was of lesser worth, because I had these ‘throwback’ characteristics.

Consequently I bonded with the world;) and I drew strength from all Peoples experiencing oppression, to add to my fairy tale and Dicken’s characters.  I considered myself an Albino Negro and Nelson Mandela became my hero.  

 My mother said  “the only thing you have going for you is the hair on your head”  referring to my blonde hair, while the rest of me she considered to be an evolutionary slip-up as I did not meet her specifics.  She would say desperately, wrenching her head around from side to side in the air as she spoke “Why is god punishing me, this way, to give me such a god-awful ugly child?” 

My mother struggled with her vocabulary.  Her conversation – and that is using the term generously – was limited to retelling of events in a listed way, retelling of a ‘story’, criticizing and using learned abusive words.  Some of these, most likely she had said to her as a child, and others were clearly military words and orders.

She absolutely was not able to use language to create her reality as she went along in a day, instead she relied upon using a set script, that she needed to fit to suit a circumstance.  This is very common, to what else I have noticed of the habit of the English language in England. 

Later in adulthood she learned to use the word ‘apparently’ and I noticed that it gave her more to do with a sentence.;)

I find the motivation to want to know, to determine intelligence in relation to ‘Race’, indicative of a lesser intelligence than not needing to know, or not ever getting that thought.

As we know more, other words have been introduced  in our categorising, such as ‘hispanic’.

As breeds of humans – as with breeds of dogs – we may have a propensity for something not occurring in other breeds of us, that is, a natural aptitude or tendency towards an activity or behaviour, or be more inclined to do things a certain way. 

Our language group gives us variation in our disposition also, and I go into more detail in ‘Living In Me. The Complete Guide to Being Human.’

The Law of Reincarnation, also enables us to be of different Race/Breed/Language, through our Soul’s evolution, when we manifest on earth, and of course we are still so much more, as I enter into in other writings.

In conclusion, whoever was being considered ‘less intelligent’ because of the way they appeared physically, was most likely more intelligent than the one deciding!;)    And many have needed to defend themselves in a second – if not a fifth language!

“Love the skin you ‘re in!”   Absolutely!   But also love your home language!  : )

The common question : “How Are You?” Is it working for us?

It doesn’t make sense for a start! : ) I consider it is a major language error, given the extent of its use, the reason for language, and for what is attainable by us.   This is a thorough exam, with alternative suggestions!

It is  a question, that reduces  or completely separates us, from a state of ‘connection with all that is’.    It does not encourage, assist or enhance personal growth at all. 

It accurately could be called ‘the question of the unconscious’!   It is used as a learned enquiry into someone’s health, but really it is a demand.   It is telling someone what to say next, to explain themselves to you, and directing their consciousness on what to think.

What a developed consciousness feels is a ‘oneness’ with all other matter, and a lack of a vibrational ‘end’ between oneself and anything else, as everything that exists is vibrating.

In this state of oneness everything is felt, you are part of the ‘all’ of matter, and there is no ‘separate’ in existence for you at all. 

It is not possible in this state of heightened awareness – that is attainable by all – to decipher “How you are?”  as in this context, this question loses all relevance, and doesn’t even apply. 

 This state of ‘oneness’ is also where all senses and pleasures are heightened andwhere blissfulness is the reliable norm, so it is not something that you want to leave in a hurry……if at all.

To Be in the Present Moment is not a place from which it is possible to consider the question How Are You?

It may seem or feel like you are doing a kind and considerate thing  – as it is what you have been taught. 

But, to be reduced to need to explain yourself at speed in a grocery queue, to someone you do not know and may never see again, with a long line of people behind you??!    This does not validate you, or  your feelings! : )

To answer it truthfully and meaningfully does not fit this setting at all.   Imagine

“Thank you for asking, I am feeling hurried at the moment when I would really love to feel in a blissful state of oneness with the people in this queue;)” Or “Thank you, I am not feeling like I would most want to be feeling as I have a problem with the neighbours, so it is not as restful for me at home as I would like.  Frank was made redundant at work so finances are a bit of a struggle and Louise needs more textbooks for the seminar special study course which is causing us challenges..  how are you?”   You can see the shop worker’s eyebrows raising as really they have just been told to ask you as part of the continued misunderstanding of the appropriatness of the question to us.  Really they are just wanting to do their job, and wish you would finish so they can serve the next person, or get their lunch break!!

What about  just a change of a couple of words to make a non question:  “I hope you are well!”  Can you feel the difference?

It would be easier all round to give one another a greeting that fit the situation, than to ask them How Are You?

I go as far as say it is detrimental to a developing  consciousness, to be asking this regularly, and counter-productive to an attainment of a better understanding of life, what you are, and of the way your human life works.  All of these are a natural result of being in the present moment.

The state of attainment of serenity and bliss from feeling a ‘oneness’ with ‘all that is’ is the natural state for us.  This is simply the result for us when we learn to ‘drive’ ourselves, or how to Be ourselves.

Historically , I believe it is a question that began from ignorance,(ignorance;without knowledge) within developing society.

I believe it increased in popularity, with the increase in a ‘class’ structure, and when being able to ‘question’ someone at all, was a distinction of where you fit in the ‘ranks’ and how many subordinates (those beneath you) you had. 

Do not question me!” “Who do you think you are to question me?!”   were methods of control used, and who you could, and could not question, a mark of social rank.   To be able to ask questions freely of those in your rank/class – without reprimand – would have felt acceptable, camaraderic and even bonding experiences.

Let’s break it down:

“How”    Few fully understand what they are, so that alone is enough to make imagining ‘how’  impossible.;)  ‘How’ is to explain oneself, and to answer that literally, would be to explain the entire process of you manifesting in the physical and I haven’t been able to do that in one blog yet…;)

“are”     The verb “to be”.   ‘Being’ requires knowledge of what one is, in order they might  Be it, so ‘same as above’;)

“you”    Again requiring knowledge of what one is, knowing what is the ‘you’ or ‘me’, and what separates us. Also what joins us, and knowledge of when we are separate, and when are we one again.

The answer to this is a long explanation, and not in any way, shape, or form, ‘a greeting’.  It is a philosophical request, of a very personal nature, literally meaning ‘how did you manifest into this time and space to be before me’.

Do you really mean to ask this?  Do you want really to be questioning anyone when you meet or greet them?  What about a return to a real greeting of a gift of energy?  In most other languages greetings continue to be used.

In Australia I find “How are ya?”or “How ya going?”  has all but replaced a greeting of any kind. 

The “good day/morning/evening” was considered too British and a desire to be more relaxed and casual caused it to be dropped, and to keep just the second part – the enquiry into someone’s wellbeing.  Energetically though, this removed the greeting altogether.

So ‘How are you?’  is not really a greeting at all, but an enquiry. 

I best describe it as ‘a demand’ or a request to ‘explain yourself” to whoever wants to know! 

Suddenly you are expected to give them your full attention, and to have them direct your consciousness to wherever they direct it, like it is a piece of toffee on their stick.;)

Or, that your vastness, memory files, and complete storage of all that you are in your life so far, is no more than a magazine to be flicked through at their leisure!;)

It was never an appropriate enquiry, more an attempt as ‘seeming to care’ as it became more popularized and commercialized.   With loved ones, it still remains appropriate when time and setting allow for truth.

In Australia, common responses to it are ‘”Good.” ; “Good, howsyerself Good?” and “S’all Good” (It is all good). 

Considering a large % of the population is on medication for depression but still responds “Good”, demonstrates  that this verbal expression stays at the ”mind level’ rather than being a truth. 

It is not helpful to a situation of deteriorating/declining happiness to make irrelevant the very creative building blocks that words are, for us, when used as they are intended.

I also feel it is unkind, to use this enquiry so freely in an impersonal, commercial setting. 

There are people commonly now, who are dealing with bad feelings, and coping well, and to have their consciousness brought back suddenly without their choosing, to be reminded that prehaps they are not really the happiest at the moment, but not wanting anyone to know, or not wanting to feel it again for themselves – only leads to further disconnection from their own truth, and thus widens the gap from themselves and the chance to heal it.

Not using words in truth, maintains the status quo, contributes to it, assists your slide downhill, and definitely does nothing to assist it.;)

When words are said from the mind only –  as in mind, mouth, mind, mouth, mind, mouth’  – at no time, does it ever touch or connect with our true self. 

As an energy being, our centre, is located in our heart chakra, and is positioned approximately at the bottom of our ‘sternum’ – end of mid ribcage, for us.

It is the centre, as the chakra above our heads – that can not be seen by most human eyes –  is included, in this division.

When someone slows down their answer, taking a breath,  energetically their own consciousness includes the lower chakras. 

When someone answers more slowly, on their breath, the rest of theirself – without any knowledge of them/their names/the point , needing to be brought to conscious awareness, of the vessel of the forthcoming phrase. – automatically is connected and ‘driven’ right!

A variation of “How is your day?” understandably may have seemed to have been a correction of kinds, to a more caring, more modern approach, a ‘bigger ask’ even.  It does exactly the same removal from ‘the moment’ as the original. 

To leave the moment – where a developed consciousness is – to assess the entire day, though you are still in it, is not actually something that a human being need be doing, is not something that is healthy for a human being to be doing, and I am sure it is not even a natural human behaviour at all!

It is most likely a ‘construct’, imagined behaviour or ‘culture created from a loungeroom’  which is what  I began to call such behaviours some years ago.;))

I like to be in a nonthinking or Zen state whenever I can, as LIFE IS INCREDIBLE like that.  It is like being on the best drug without any side effects.  Colours are brighter, everything comes so close to my eyes it is like I can touch things that are miles away….all senses are heightened to the max.

Sharing ‘what is brought to mind’ from a zen or non-thinking state is completely possible, but accessing information, requires we turn the mind on, and this is what is necessary to answer a question.  The mind is ‘activated’ or turned ‘on’ ,when we need to access information, from ‘storage’ within us.

When I hear “how are ya?”  I interpret it within, as a greeting, and I lead or respond with a good morning/afternoon/evening or hello/heh etc. 

Greetings as understood as a gift of energy are wonderful.  Why do we wanting to make demands of one another?  Greeting with a gift rather than a demand/drain/requirement of energy, then allows for a restful sharing of what comes to mind for any or either or no one.

It begins a more natural way of relating.

It encourages a natural ‘bringing to mind’ from another’s sharing, that their presence enables you to experience.  You are given opportunity to express this natural verbal sharing, thus creating your reality, as the mirrors for this that you are for oneanother.

I guarantee that you will receive what is uppermost in this other person to share with you, specifically.  If they need to share ‘how they are doing with something’ you will hear it! : )

Gifts of energy greetings  come naturally when we meet friends, lovers. partners and kin, as we have an interest in keeping them vibrationally ‘up’ as that strengthens them and us.  We are strong when they are strong and well.  It is easier to see the relation that we have to oneanothers vibration when we break it done like this.

  So, you are meeting another human/energy being in the street.  The following are examples of ‘greetings’ that are gifts of energy. 

The experience becomes a mutually energizing exchange this way.  None are questions, demands, or reducers of energy.

Try following this method, and notice the changes in your own energy and feelings of those you meet. 

 Smile – the face shows it sees a delight (an ‘energy raiser’)  Nod your head perhaps, what else happens to your body as your energy moves?  Speak what comes to mind for you – a ‘sharing’ – from the presence/energy of this being/other.

 Remember to breathe down inside your solar plexus/diaphragm prior to speech, to assist you in connecting with yourself and what is true for you at that time – otherwise called ‘your Truth”.

Examples of greetings using the English language follow, but if your own comes to you, it does so for a reason.  These are only to give you an idea :

 A joyous day to you Madam!  ; A glorious day to you Sir! ; Good morning/afternoon/evening!  ;   Hello! ;   Hey! ;    Good to see you! ;  You look lovely this sunny morning! ;   Wow you look great! ;    I am so glad to see you! ;  Lovely to see you! ;   Gorgeous day! ;   Meeting you always makes me smile! ;  You put a smile on my face! ;   I feel great to see you! ;   A sunny day to you whatever the weather! ; Feels good to see you! ;   It feels great to be in your energy again! *;   I feel good when I feel you! ;   It feels great to be around you/near you! ;   Heh, here we are again! ;   We are together again! ;  Great to be back in your energy *! ;   Great to reconnect (with you)!*;   This feel great! ;   Wonderful to be with you! ;   etc 

(* personal favourites)

Then share what comes to mind, if something does.  Do not feel the need to ‘talk for the sake of talking’ as this is belittling in the extreme, to what it is that you are. Try “I feel to share…”

1. Two energy beings (human beings) meet in the street, they make vibrational demands on oneanother’s time and energy, then part.

2. Two energy beings (human beings) meet in the street, they strengthen one another form their meeting.

Which do you do?  Which is it going to be? : )

I would love to hear any feedback to any changes you notice!  : ) 

Confidence is our birthright.

Confidence is our birthright.  We contain at birth, all the confidence we will ever need.

This writing examines the what, whys and hows, why it is lacking, and why getting it back is vital.  The long and short of it, is this is a long;) but necessarily so!

Historically, removing confidence was a proven tactic,  to achieve greater control and discipline over others, so it became part of the system adopted and relied upon, within our developing society. 

Our culture is predominantly from English rule and development through the centuries, and this was one largely based upon fear and mistrust of others. 

 It was considered disobedient, heretic, and unlawful historically, to question one’s own self from greater understanding, and could risk death or imprisonment, as it was was seen as direct disobedience and/or disrespect to the crown or the church at that time.   They were the nucleus of Britain’s societal structure, and any threat to these functioning, needed to be quelled/stifled/stopped.

Confidence comes naturally from self knowing.  When a human being is unable to know itself, confidence can be naturally lacking in epidemic proportions…as it is today.

“I reclaim all confidence I may have lost in moments of stress, shock or upset, or had taken, or have given freely away, to be in my full strength in this present moment.”

 So what is confidence exactly? It is our ability to just know we can do something.  It is with us with our every action, our every movement, our every consideration.  It is not something that is separate from us at all and we actually need to consciously separate it ourselves, in order to give it away, or to let someone take it from us, in order that we can be without it.

*confidence – full trust; belief in the trustworthiness or reliability of a person or a thing; self-reliance, assurance or boldness (Macquarie,Aust.’91) 

When a cat gets up and crosses a room, it does so with the confidence it has in knowing it will reach the other side.  In the confidence it has in its ability to move its limbs.  In the confidence it has in its ability to discern that there is no hidden danger in the carpet, or behind the curtain;) A human baby takes a step, after it has the confidence in standing and moving legs and feet.  Action, then consequence, from confidence in desired outcome, and from ability experienced.  Not a conscious thing at all, it is completely naturally inherent.

So confidence is something we naturally have. 

We cannot have a ” bit of confidence” or a “lot of confidence”.  This is actually not accurate usage of the meaning of the word, we just have it.  We contain all the confidence we need for our entire lives.  The word has just been misused among others.  Most likely feelings you could mix up with the word, are really those of uncertainty, nervousness or apprehension.  These are very different feelings, and are useful to us, for what they can share when we read them correctly, behave accordingly, then release them from us.

Know that you have confidence, and that you always have enough.

So why do some of us feel we don’t have any?

To feel a lack in natural confidence is an ill-health issue, BUT, in human beings, undermining natural confidence, was a chosen strategy, or course of action for the development of a number of different branches within society.  

It was a strategy that had proven it’s worth for many years in the military.  In the development of our society, the military had a prominent role, and given prominent consideration in political circles.  Still much that we get, inventions, services and products, that are made available, began as instruments for military use.  Another definition of undermine, is ‘to make a passage under, as in military operations’.

The very fact that it is called “undermining confidence”* proves that we have it already, and it is needed to be reduced/depleted/minimised.

* undermine – to render unstable by digging into or wearing away at the foundation; to affect injuriously or weaken by secret or underhand means; to weaken insidiously; destroy gradually.(Macquarie, Aust.’91)

 It is much harder to control or influence a people who are confident with who they are.  As we are all equal as human beings, it is vital, if a society is of a construct that requires a hierarchy within it, that the majority of human beings believes they are of little worth, and that they are dependent on others for their very well-being.

Undermining confidence, in order that it could be earned back in an approved manner.  Undermining confidence to make for a more subservient group. Undermining confidence to make for a group that was more easily controlled. 

Opportunity to win back confidence, or to earn back confidence, could then be a chosen method of motivation.

My own childhood made this very clear.

I can still recall the tone used by my mother when she shouted at me in complete frustration and almost disbelief, with a screwed up face, narrowed eyes and a horrible tone :  “Where did you get that confidence?”  Not from her obviously!;) 

She required me to have none.  She expected me to have none.  She had done her hardest to insure I had none.  She herself told me of the army’s need to undermine confidence to get the troops into shape. I hear the words “undermine confidence” with her voice to it still, of her using the words with me when I was a little girl.  

At this time , and particularly in my mother’s time, children were still considered by some to be second class citizen, mini labourers, by those with the teachings of Victorian England very much rooted in their consciousness.  There was no children’s vocabulary or separate words used by my mother when speaking to me, she used military vocabulary, and gave orders, as had been used on her.

My mother’s world did not work, if I already had confidence.  But have it I did, quite naturally.  That it needed to be ‘undermined’ also demonstrates that it is inherent in us from birth.   

She needed to remove it, in order that I could earn it back somehow.  In order that I would be motivated to achieve respect for myself through some work or study avenue, or by obeying her every whim, in the hope that she would one day cast me an approving glance.

It did not feel right to me at all to give away my confidence, to someone I did not trust.  

As the home I was born into offered me at no time a safe trusting place, I did not give my confidence away.  It just was not a convincing prospect ever.  

There was no time that my mother said something to me that I trusted, or even pretended to be nice.  It therefore made no sense to me, to give away my confidence to her.  I was never given an incentive to believe this individual telling me what to do, had my best interests at heart.  I knew she didn’t.  I did not have any confidence in her!;)). 

Fairytales were full of children running away, and making it on their own, and I had plans.  I had a secret life, and she made no attempt to get to know me – I was to be only as she dictated – so in fact I was a secret. 

I ran away at five years old, and sat for the longest time on the front steps of the sweet shop, thinking it over.  I returned myself and unpacked my little case as I had nowhere to go, and I realised I couldn’t make it on my own.  I did plan to make it on my own at some stage though, I just didn’t know when, so I hung onto my confidence, as I knew I was going to need it.

A television show that we watched was “It Ain’t Half Hot Mum” a show about a British regiment stationed in India.  Amongst the characters was a very strong and belittling sergeant-major, who yelled at the rest of the men in derogatory ways.  “You lowdown piece of scum you.”

 My mother had been an acting Sergent Major and words like ‘on parade’, ‘forward march’, ‘ready for inspection’, were commonly used by her. 

Common words she also used were:

 “worthless child”, (worthless;without worth, useless, valueless, of no importance)

“stupid, ignorant child” (stupid; lacking ordinary activity & keenness of mind, mental dullness, tediously dull),

“you wretch” (wretch;deplorably unfortunate, a person of despicable character)

These were all words that were acceptable confidence controllers by her military mind.

If she had a query, or if her attention was caught, she would begin it with a  “What’s wrong with you now child

The combination of, the removal of confidence and respect, in order that they could be a useful motivator for participation in key areas within society, is still functioning to this day.

 An example of this, is to study for a ‘certificate’ course/’diploma’ course/’degree’.  Once you have been part of a study course and proven yourself, or from job experience, or received an award by way of certificate, or trophy, that makes us certain we can be ‘confident’ in that area.

We can receive a title in some cases that gives us back more respect among our peers and ‘subordinates’*. (*More on this in another writing.)

In addition to removal of inherent confidence and respect, it was also considered important what others may think, and I feel this could possibly be and most likely is, the origin of the development of what I call ‘false realities’.  Falsely wanting people to believe they had some experience they hadn’t. or completed a course in something they hadn’t.   Just to get back the respect that they were entitled to from birth anyway.

When our society was planned, it was done so without knowledge at all of what we are.  There was none of the knowledge on the Human Being, that is available today, or how to maintain ourselves in health or even what our needs are.

It was also planned by those who did not and were not able to historically, perceive the consequences of their legislation. 

 Traditionally in some other cultures, it is specifically the women, who make a determining decision, as they are the ones who are considered able to foresee for the generations.  British political history contained no such balance.

It was planned largely by those who wanted for themselves a better life, and who were mostly suspicious of all others, mostly in ill health of one kind or another, and mostly confused about what marks/shapes/constitutes a life priority from an irrelevance!!!   

Lacking in confidence is not the same thing as being shy, anxious, apprehensive or fearful.

Being shy, bashful, timid, introverted, keeping to one’s self are not the same thing as lacking in inherent confidence.  Feelings are to be felt.  Feelings can be indicators of much : do it anyway!

I was painfully shy as I was spent most of my time during my early childhood years feeling emotionally crushed, and being directly ordered that I was “worthless”.  I considered myself an “emotional void” at one time, so aware was I that I had such a build up of emotional injuries, that I had stopped registering their pain.

I was not able to look anyone in the eye, or hold my head up in order to do that.  I consciously needed to heal this within myself, and did so in a systematic way, giving myself suggestions and trial behaviours to cure my shyness.  I realised that someone can see me just as much, if I looked at them shyly, partially and sideways, as if I looked at them directly square on!

I realised that we choose our actions, and our actions become our behaviour, and our behaviours are what makes us, and we become who we decide to be.

Reclaiming confidence…

A quote I came across that resonates with me is “Procrastination is the evil nemesis of confidence”. 

How we put things off, coming up with excuse after excuse to do everything else, but the thing we are wanting to do!   We can also decide to do it anyway!  I like to use the phrase ‘what irks us the most, is where we are ripest for growth’ for these things.

Where we need to take a ‘step up’ in our behaviours, to incorporate a new activity or achievement, demonstrates to us that it is forward, higher, or growth for us, on our path. 

It is recommended to take ‘baby steps’ towards the difficult challenge, doing it breakdown by breakdown, bit by bit, nibbling away at it.  It is when we are certain that something is challenging for us, that we know we are in the right direction.  We know we are growing!

Shyness is a feeling.  Feel it…then do it anyway!    Some of us are naturally more insecure or shy than others and this can be as simple as astrological determiners/alignment of the solar system at time of conception.  These are our ‘cards’ but they are not set and we can develop ourselves through our own personal growth, knowing what are strengths and weaknesses are, but  more on this in another writing…

To ‘know oneself’ is so important so we know what we have to work with,  what we can discard, and what we can work on….to BE all we can Be…with confidence!  : )

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So Feelings Are Energy?

Life is easiest when seen as a giving, receiving and sharing of energy.

If we live where lies are told to us, and given no life guidance in which we can trust, it is in such conditions, that we are able to develop means – from our own creativity – to learn of, and satisfy our own real needs. 

It is easier, to learn of real human needs this way, from human wants and human desires.

This was my situation.  I learned that the only ‘control’ or ‘constant’ that I could trust, was to rely upon my own feelings for safety and for guidance, as I went about each day.  It was an easy realization for me to make, as simple as a) did it work for me and help me thrive?  Or b) did it harm me further?

What were these things known as ‘feelings’, I wondered as a small child.  

It is true that feelings are energy, that emotion is e-motion or energy in motion.

They were not considered important at all in Britain as the time.  To “grin and bear something” were instructions from my mother, as though feelings were a trivial, non consequential aspect of us.

Quite the contrary is true, however, and they are information – or communication – for us, specifically to notice, read, learn or make decisions from.  Ignoring feelings will result in us becoming unwell.

I like to repeat for readers the decision made in Victorian times, for economic growth, that “nothing exists unless there was a tool by which it could be measured”, as a reason for why feelings could so easily be ignored. 

What was unseen in Victorian times, was to remain unseen for a very long time. It is only relatively recently that such tools that can observe subtle or inner energies and auras have been developed.

It turns out that we reside inside our emotional body.   Our emotional body is part of our aura.  Our aura is the complete totality of us; where our unseen energy reaches to;  the energy our physical body is contained within.   

‘Feelings’ of the e-motion kind are not the same as messages given by nerve receptors to a specific point in the body, such as provided by neuron pathways.  It is just a vocabulary inefficiency that makes this a little unclear for us, to use the word ‘feeling’ rather than ‘sensing from a receptor’. I find I refer to these as ‘sensations’.

Feeling love, receiving love, and giving love.  That really is the mark of our achievements.  How well do we do those?  Which one do we do less well?  Use that as a guide to know what more to work on, to bring more joy to you.  To be here in the 3rd dimension – the physical – in the love/vibrational state of our source…that really what it is all about.   

Bringing a state of heaven to earth is written and spoken of in churches and gospels, but the above statement is what it really means.  The first time I came across the word ‘joy’ even was in a church song ( I loved to sing in them at our Christmas visits)   I had no idea what joy meant, I thought it was just a church word.;)

It is our responsibility to bring joy to the earth – it is not going to happen while we sit around and wait for it.   And those of us who have suffered the most, can contain the most joy.  How perfect that is.

I wondered why I felt so terrible when I was in close proximity to my own mother.  I became nauseous suddenly a few times, just from passing her in the hallway.  I became more interested in what I had heard referred to as ‘bad vibes’ and wondered what the cause of them could be.

The family home also had an energy or feeling to it that I could not relax in.  I could relate to the wording that I ‘could cut the energy with a knife” that was around my mother, and that filled most of the house. 

Ride the waves, feel happiness and delight or ecstasy, from whatever natural source, then expect any grief and anger feelings that may arise, as they leave you.  Welcome them, and welcome them leaving you.  It is simply the Law Of Energetics at work,  it is the efficiency or our design, bringing healing to us without conscious effort! : )

It is how we feel that matters, not so much what is actually happening.  Keeping myself in as joyful and relaxed state of being as I could, absolutely ensured my body heal well, after receiving many injuries in a car accident.  My cells were being newly formed, and I wanted them to be as well as possible, so I gave them as pleasant an enviroment to be formed in, myself!   Music is fantastic for this, as it can maintain our emotional state

Human health will continue to detereorate on a global scale without official recognition of the significance of our emotional wellbeing – the way we feel – to our physical framework, and the world we create around us.

Choose something today to do for yourself, our of loving kindness.  No other reason is required. : )

The Tao Of Knickers.

 Mainly for women, to assist with candida/thrush issues, I explain historically what has come about with this invention, and the situation today. We can enjoy knickers, but not at the expense of our bodily health, and unfortuately this is occurring to an enormous number of women.

Knickers are an invention by what I call ‘cold country creativity’. 

Where we are on the globe pretty much determined where our creativity led us, and what the status quo is today in terms of who invented what, when. 

Some inventions are fabulous, others good, some not so good and really needing correction, and others completely unhealthy for us. 

Over time we have been known to eliminate some, and others get passed on from one societal representative/organisational body to another to deal with.  Some are perhaps considered in the ‘too hard basket’ and remain undealt with to this day.

Knickers or undergarments to enclose the genitalia of those in female form, were the invention of cold country creativity by humans who had poor health and hygiene by today’s standards. 

The main reasons for this invention originally, and continuing, are:

1. hygiene: 

In British history, infrequent washing, due to a lack of basic health care knowledge, had people really exist in a grubby state.  Undergarments were to keep outer garments clean and to need even less washing.  Heating of water was a costly and challenging thing to achieve, and clean water itself a challenge to come by.

A joke in England I recall from the 80’s, was the making sure you had clean underpants on “in case you were hit by a car” ! No other reason, but to avoid embarrassment if you needed to go to hospital etc!  Washing only once per week,  was a very common habit, that continues even now amongst some.

2. enclosing or covering:

Men can benefit from a support garment for their largely external genital organ, and it was felt wanted for women also to be covered.

A removal of our real sexual selves, was considered needed in a constructed society that favoured hard work over relating ability.  It was not considered appropriate at all, for women to be naked under their outer garments, and as many restrictions and coverings that could be had, were had.  Corsets, petticoats, etc all were part of this at some stage.

I consider the continuing Western societal need for a woman to be wearing knickers – when there is no health reason for her to do so – to be related to the reasoning given for women in other cultures and language groups, who are covered over their outer clothes also, and, some of whom are closed further physically by way of stitches to their genitalia.  

Certainly there are other historic reasons for these, and I cover them in another writing, but important to know the relation here, as it is simply a man/woman misunderstood, human thing also.

3. Sex accessory:

Knickers are sexy to men, and many designers of knickers are men.  As women, we can feel sexy in them.  We become a package to be opened, we tease and we keep suspense as to what lies beneath.  Far far sexier to have a thong or countless layers to remove, than just to appear fully naked.

Unfortunately for many women, a consequence of no air being able to circulate the yoni/vagina, is a change in temperature leading to an altered environment that is no longer suitable for the health needs of essential micro-organisms. 

This condition is called THRUSH, an uncomfortable condition that is: itchy, stinging, swelling, painful, discharging, discoloring, tacky, sticky, all or some or any of these.

Woman is an open thing.  If we all wore a cloth tightly over our mouths, we would develop adverse conditions there also.  We would develop adverse conditions affecting the health of favourable mouth micro-organisms – even if the cloth was cotton, bamboo or another natural fibre – if circulating air is what these micro-organisms require!

My experience of the development of thrush, is huge.  I had many instances of this condition before I figured it out. 

If I alter my body temperature by a couple of degrees only, I will need to do some anti thrush/candida measures pretty quick smart.  This can be achieved with slightly cooler than body temperature /luke warm water to bring the temperature down, perhaps a couple of drops of tea tree oil added into the water if an imbalance is suspected already.  A very weak solution bicarbonate soda works well to bring an immediate balance back 1:50 should be enough, creating a solution first of a level teaspoon dissolved in warm water.

Another brilliant natural solution you may have in the house already, to bring a quick return in your favour, is a douche prepared from the ‘Inner Health” dairy free powder.  A teaspoon in a bowl of body temp water is enough, then use a syringe or douche device to completely flush the vaginal channel.    Repeat as needed.

‘Inner Health’  is a common product available in capsules or powder to return an upset stomach to health.  Certainly the environments are not identical, but the organisms are favourable for a return to a healthy state vaginally, if not so severe as to need Canesten.  These brands are great for when antibiotics interfere with our natural inner bacterial states, and our vaginal environment is often equally affected by antibiotics, if not more so, than our intestines.

Also sea mineral salts can help – Amena’s Health Centre brand – use a 2.5 – 5mls  for a small bowl of body temp water.  – for when it is not so severe that the pharmaceutical ‘Canesten’ suppositories or syringes are a necessity.   This is an excellent douche if altered cells to the cervix are found in a pap smear.  Before he passed away from old age last year, Gerry Amena shared with me a few cases where douching with the sea salts had assisted  – as part of an entire healthy life change regime – the return to healthy cervix cells.

In the Vulcana Women’s Circus, where I proudly can do a very teeny bit of what the other women can – I am always amazed at the beautiful, but severely constrictive and therefore body temperature raising  leotards and tights many of the women wear.  I practically get thrush just from looking at these clothes!;)

On a pamphlet I read about ‘thrush’ it said 90% of Australian women aged 18-24 find asking for thrush treatment embarrassing.   The pamphlet was to help these women to seek treatment without awkward embarrassment.  I read once somewhere that 3 out of every 5 Australian women may have thrush.

Whatever the real statistics, in a hot country like Australia, thrush is very common.  If there is no reason to be wearing knickers, feel comfortable to not wear them.  No one needs to know.

Women naturally occurring in hot countries wore loose garments, sarongs, grass/vine skirts, all allowing air to circulate.

Only when British (or French, or Dutch, but really another European ‘cold’ country competing with Britain for that country at the time) clothed folk, influenced by their own perceived and misunderstood superiority, visited and overwhelmed native inhabitants, did we have conditions arise when ‘cold country creativity’ clothes were largely forced on native Peoples in hot countries.   All manner of introduced illnesses and adverse effects occurred from a variety of different reasons.

There are Anion pads these days.  What these are, are sanitary pads that also release oxygen atoms.  So Yes, absolutely, the healthiest way to wear knickers, is to wear them with a liner of oxygen releasing material.  This completely counteracts the effects of wearing the knickers, as well as having enormous additional benefits.  As though you are not wearing knickers IS the healthiest way to wear knickers!

I do not wear knickers without an anion pad liner insert, as I will get thrush, unless I wear them for a very short time.

Fortunately I have my own supply of these Anion wonders as they are not available in shops.  There are an increasing number of folk becoming sales representatives as the healing benefits become more widely known.  They are the most superb sanitary invention available and they are developing more products all with women’s health in mind.   www.winalite.com  

If you need to wear jeans or other pants, putting a panty liner of kinds, in the crotch of these garments, can be a healthier alternative to wearing full knicker briefs.  

If you wear a skirt do you need to put on knickers at all…if no one will know?  It is actually largely because you are wearing something so close to your skin and natural lubrication, that your genital ‘mucous’ gets onto the gussets of your knickers, making you think you need them.  With circulating air, you remain clean.

Certainly there are times I want to be wearing knickers for protecting my clothes, for making me feel more protected from the outside world, to give a better line to my outfit, but not every day, and especially not without an oxygen releasing liner!

As women the health of our yoni/vagina is a huge determining factor in how we view of ourselves.  There is much to know about the wonder of us down there. 

Our yonis/vaginas are different and in other cultures – particularly Native American Indian wisdom’s – an enormous amount of research and learning is available for us, about how we differ according to the types of yonis there are.  Unlike the ignorance that resulted in them being covered up, they were given lovely names and insight resulted, in what it means to us, to have a certain type/shape/labia length/distance between parts etc.

But that is hot country creativity and wisdom, and more on that another time.  ‘Cold country creativity’ you are probably wearing, and possibly you live in a hot climate/country, so….get yer knickers off!!!    At least sometimes… : )

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I’m so over the toilet-WC-invention!;)

Let’s improve the common toilet invention why don’t we?  It was seen as such a mastery of inventing, the infamous ‘S’ Bend and the magic flushing action, but I say please lets move on can’t we?;) 

WC  or water closet.  What a waste of water for a start, and we really need to be taking water use into serious consideration for the future.

Many toilet systems in England still have the bidet in elaborate structures, a bottom washer, that you can squat over and be squirted at by, but that again is more a waste and a market design, than a good invention demonstrating sense and hygiene.

Let us not forget, that efficient removal of our waste products, is for the very reason that such bacteria and contaminants was the original and main cause of ill-health, disease and death amongst us.  This still applies to us today.

Keeping separate our faeces and urine from our essential needs of intake were, and still are, the most important considerations for maintenance of good health.

As I always say, there are good inventions and not so good inventions.  There are inventions that are not sensible at all but marketable, and harmful inventions that we have examples of needing to phase out of common use, due to the significant damage they caused.  DDT use, dangerous toys, cigarettes as a few examples.

Inventions are just something we have designed with our creativity, and there is no reason whatsoever that we cannot improve upon them with our improved knowledge.

May I suggest a mirror on the underside of the toilet as something that I consider necessary.  I used to have a round one stuck to the underside in one house , and in my house these days I have a mirror on the wall in proximity to the toilet for easy viewing.

If our very life and health depends upon good hygiene, and the very root cause of ill-health used to be from contamination with our waste products, then it stands to reason that we should combine the invention of the mirror if it can assist us with keeping ourselves clean?  No?

Many folk have healing to do in relation to their own connection with these lower body parts, and I feel a mirror would assist with this also.  Many preventable disorders would be observed long before they became more serious.

As  woman I can share of many other useful reasons for a mirror as we maintain ourselves in the best health possible.  Sometimes a quick look in a mirror of changes in colour or anything else can give us insight long before we feel any discomfort, and how sensible to do it as part of regular toileting.

A simple rule of life, is to look after our body the best we can afterall.  Lets ‘get over’ ourselves, and embrace every part of us;)   Also, I don’t enjoy particularly sharing the room I bathe in, with a toilet.  If it can’t be outside – and I ask why not – then better if in a separate room altogether.

The Tv show Dr Oz, had a wonderful and explanatory episode showing tests they had done in a lab on personal items from audience member’s bathrooms.  Tooth brushes, shower-caps, jars to hold toothbrushes, all showed intestinal bacteria present on them – from poo.

How many of us are told that the lid of the toilet prevents intestinal bacteria and whatever else is lurking in the toilet, from travelling 20 feet in water vapour particles whenever it is flushed?

Drop toilets are extremely practicable and there are wonderful composting systems available so you can turn your waste into productive waste for the earth.  I looked into many of these in my ecology training, and Wilderness Society/Greens/Conservation Council involvements.

The design in Muslim countries has a much better usage of water, where you use it to clean yourself, rather than using it to assist your waste to travel away from you!  Squatting lower to the ground allows for a better position to assist its removal, and water can be accessed with implements if not a spray nozzle device attached to the wall.

In some of the fine hotels in Bali and Indonesia I visited for my studies of  Orang Utans, I have experienced the best designs of a nozzle and hose attached to the wall that enabled the most complete and easy clean of all.  It is the winner so far, in the  categories of good health, great design and common sense!

The nozzle was in easy access, and extremely flexible with a soft, small but strong spray that could be directed expertly.   It makes far greater sense to use water this way, than to use it to chase the faeces fancily away from you while you wipe yourself, unseen, with a piece of dry tissue!!;)

Wiping yourself without any moisture at all – and without even a mirror!- does not make for 100% as squeaky clean as you can be every time.  The common term ‘skid marks’ in the English language, given to fecal stains found in a streak shape in the back sea of your undies, can attest to this.

My British Grandfather used to frighten some of the grandkids with his toilet antics.  He was very strict about only 3 pieces of toilet paper being used – 3 of the perforated squares only. ” One to wipe, one to polish, and one to shine” he would order.

He would inspect the role to paper to check up on you.  he would remind you of the strict rules before you needed to go, and he would enquire about it from his comfy chair, after you had been.  There was always the fear that he would visit you in there, when he was mobile enough to do so.

This is a classic example of priorities being lost.  More important that a child learns correct hygiene and reason for keeping oneself clean after toileting, than fear inducement or saving pennies on buying toilet paper from the shop.

Feedback I have received from folk talking of lovers they have had, who had not “wiped themselves properly” at one time or another, suggests it is the habit of just wiping themselves, that is not really a ‘properly’ or  an ‘adequate’ thing to do!

I am a huge fan of us all combining our strengths, passions and expertise as we live together, on, and as a part of, the organism ‘Earth’.  Lets do something better and wiser- the earth over- with our intelligence and our waste removal! : )

What happens when we cry? / What’s crying about?

  • why humans cry
  • how it occurs
  • how I know

My father left me in the ‘crying room’ of a British childcare facility, saying to me in a voice with a strong Hungarian accent, and a gentle tone “do not cry my darling girl or I will cry”.

I was left on a low wooden frame bed, maybe half a foot from the floor, that just had hessian stretched over it.   They were lined up in rows, and the window had more hessian cloth over it to keep the room dark.  There was nothing else in it.

There was nothing else to do except to lie on the bed and cry.  The door was ajar and you were only able to leave if you would not cry.  If you ‘wanted’ to cry you had to return to the room.  I can recall feeling good about myself when I hadn’t needed to return to it for a while.

Some of us were very small.  So small, that we had to also wash and dry our knees from crawling, in addition to our hands, before we got a meal.  I can recall my parents arguing over my placement there, and it ending with my mother’s instruction to my father in a harsh, ordering, conclusive tone, “she will get used to it. ”

The purpose of our tears are to cool the face, keep our internal temperature down, diffuse our energy and to protect precious organs from overheating/over stressing.   Internal energy rises in us, in order to leave us via expression from our mouths.  Our chi/ki/prana/subtle or inner energy carries with it, the frequencies of our distressful feeling.

When energy is strong enough/’loaded’/ ‘heated’/’emotive’,  as to rise quickly or forcefully into our head, our body’s reaction is to protect our precious head extremity from over heating, or becoming over laden with energy.

Our head contains our vulnerable eyes and brain, and our design assists in preventing rising temperatures, and in neutralising the effect of energy building up, so the energy is released in the form of sound frequencies that can accompany the tears in the form of ‘sobbing’.

How perfect that our energy at its most intense, needs to pass through a fixture that has available to it, fluid to keep the eyes clean.  This fluid – contained in ‘tear ducts’, are our eyes’ first defence against foreign particles that may come into contact with the outer eye.  We naturally weep and the foreign particle is carried out from obstructing our view, to a corner of our eye for easier removal, if not flushed from the eye completely.

These tear-ducts serve a dual purpose and are activated when we need to release energy at the intensity that may be problematic for any of the rest of our being/body/self.   Our breathing can get heaved, we can get discomfort in our diaphragm, we can get aching  jaws or a headache from a frowned forehead. It is important that we have a way or protect our eyes and by crying we also assist energetic release from us, to cool down what we exacerbate from our moving energy.

The sound that we release when we cry, is in itself, is a vital release of energy that we no longer need, or want to contain, within our being. Screaming and laughing are included in this and I go into these in another writing.  The heaving, or spasming that happens over our rib-cage, enables stuck grief from past hurts to dislodge and to join the rest of the grief energy as it is released form you.

My experiences with crying continued as I was encouraged by my mother to do more of it.  “Go to your room and have a good cry about it”  she would say with a disturbing smile.   Or “go and have a good blubber about it”,  blubber being a derogatory English word referring to crying that I had heard my grandfather use before her.

I grew to enjoy my crying time – well, it’s all relative isn’t it;)- or at least the way I felt when I did it.  It was the only time I felt creatively free to express myself completely.  There was no one standing over me ordering me how to do it, what position to be in, or how to sound.  There was no one berating me for not being able to it “right” or “normally”, or “as was ordered”.   This was extremely refreshing for me.

It was the time I felt the most relaxed in the family home.  I was usually left undisturbed, so felt safer then, and what had happened to cause my crying usually meant I was going to be unhurt for while.  It was now up to me to make myself feel better.  And, this is precisely what crying enables us.  It also allows us to shape our emotional body, which in turn affects our receptivity, and our reaction to, our surroundings.

Some countries have always accepted emotional expression as a natural part of being us.  Wailing or loud grief sounds are expected in some cultures and language groups, to mourn a passing of  a loved one for example.

It has been traditionally a very English habit to keep “stiff upper lip” or not to express what we are naturally feeling.  Non recognition of our feelings is an enormous contributing cause of our global health crisis, and the English speaking population was notoriously very unhealthy historically.

It became very ‘proper’ in the English speaking world at one time, to not resemble anything natural, and to ‘behave in appropriate particular predetermined ways’ rather than to react naturally to something.   This was refered to as ‘good manners’ and ‘to show good breeding’, also ‘gentleman’ and ‘lady’ behaviour.

Being polite and courteous is one thing, and these are a natural part of showing respect, that is a quintessentially human need, but to contort natural behaviours so that they are set or rehearsed, and disconnected from any present stimuli, is ridiculous to say the least!

As I became skilled at crying, screaming it out, allowing as much frustration and pain to leave in every heave, in time, even my crying was taken from me, with a mean toned order to “stop your crying….the neighbours will hear you.”

Not being allowed to cry, then led to ‘depression’ or a feeling of complete disconnected numbness, as I literally became smothered or had all my vitality suffocated, by my own unexpressed ‘suffering’ energy.  Crying is a natural and healthy human reaction to stimuli, and we have no reason to feel uncomfortable if we understand it’s benefits and purpose.

I had discovered that sometimes sounds would just want to come out without tears when I was crying, sounds that I was not consciously shaping or ‘making’, but were just coming out of me.  Sounds that I did not even know was possible to make.

I was not allowed to make these either after a while and would receive a “Stop that noise, what’s wrong with you now child?  But I had experienced them, as a completely natural, spontaneous event.

I gave a sound healing demonstration at the Woodford Folk Festival, Sunshine Coast Hinterland, Australia, and in Inspiral Lounge, Camden Town, London, and for each of these times I went into detail specifically how my experiences of crying, had led to my knowledge of sound release.   And particularly of the benefits of allowing whatever sounds to leave us, that need to at the time, without any judgement of ours imposed upon them or our release process.

When we cry, we do not usually monitor ourselves critically like we may do when we sing or speak – so it really can be the only time we allow unconscious control of sound to emerge from us.  I doubt there has been a time when you have gone “Oh…that wasn’t a very good sounding cry!”   We tend to ‘let go’ and to allow whatever sound, that wants to come out of us, to come.  This is also precisely the sound that needs to leave us to bring about the most healing!

If only we would ‘let go’ more, in all aspects of life!

Stimuli, response.  Stimuli, response.  Stimuli, response.

Trust that your being gives you the response that you require for energetic maintenance. 

We, as human beings, are a naturally occurring organism, with natural needs.

Stimuli, cry.  Stimuli, laugh.  Stimuli, make love.  Stimuli, response. : )

I Think Therefore I Am? No.

  • correction of an historical human error that holds us back.

I feel,  I think,  I speak,  I create, therefore I am.

This is actually far more accurate, than the original ‘I think therefore I am’ if we must condense us down to one sentence at all.;)

So much has been based upon the ‘”I think” therefore I am’ claim,  for me to comment on its correction.

I feel.  We had it only partly right.  It is our feelings – or emotional body – that governs our thought process. We feel first, and what we are feeling, will largely – if not solely – determine what we are going to think of.

I speak.  For me, it was my not producing a sound, that made my mother feel more comfortable with my existence.  It was when I began to make sounds that were starting to be speech, that she made plans for my demise.  For me to speak, made me undeniably exist.

Our sound is our very life essence, and our greatest creative tool.  Our voice is our soul and our life force carried on our breath, as it passes through the unique instrument that we are.  The internals of our face and skull, I liken to the inside of a shell that we can blow into on the beach.

I create.  ‘To be Human is to create’ absolutely.  We do our creating from our feelings, and our feelings determine what we will think of creating.  We create our lives with our speech from our word choice and speech habit.  We create our world around us from our opposable thumb ability enabling us dexterity and productivity with our hands.

We create our world around us, according to how we feel.  It is not what happens to us, but how we feel about it, that will be the determiner on everything that we do.  How we are able to manage our feelings will be the determiner of life events and life on earth. : )

I saw a sign that said ‘Life Is “Good”‘. It made me sad.

  • How are language use and our vocabulary can restrict our life experience.

Life can only be “good” at the very best with his sign.

I saw it printed in large letters hanging from the ceiling in a shop that sold well-being cards and household things in San Diego, but I felt sad when I saw it.  The saying “life is what you make it” is very true.

How we receive anything is completely our own.  Let me explain.  Have you ever said anything to somebody, who reacted to what you said in a completely unexpected way?   Perhaps they took immediate offense to what you said, when you meant no harm at all, or were even making a light hearted comment for a bit of fun?

When we have unresolved issues/past hurts that we still carry around as us in our energy, any event or stimuli, passes through our accumulation of experiences/data stored, that we have not cleared.

Think of  a computer, when we haven’t deleted things, or put them onto a separate hard drive.  The computer needs to put energy into starting it whole self up, so it can have ready every little bit we might need.  It will take longer to get ready to start, and there will be an obvious drain on the power as superfluous, unneeded or irrelevant files, slow and hinder the process.

All aspects of ourselves, also require energy in order we can receive anything.  It is our fixed design, so we can use our life wisdom, that has us check everything to keep us protected.  It is largely a subconscious scanning process that goes on, as all familiarities and associations contained within, are activated.

When we carry around our problems instead of regularly clearing them, the issue of past hurt is just as ready as our own eyes, to take in the information.

We do not and we cannot take it in, without it passing through all of the ‘files behind our eyes’.

My mother taught me this from the earliest years.  She would look at something- anything- and immediately respond with something critical and negative.  She did not see beauty in what she saw.  She was not able to.

Her receiving face would have narrowed eyes under a frowning forehead.  Her nose would be narrowed.  Her posture would be stooped, or noticing from sideways on, with a cranked neck to see properly.  Her verbal comment would use a flattened or dull tone of voice that was not pleasing to hear, from a mouth that was perhaps partially obstructed by a finger or not opened fully to speak.

These are all indicative behavioural responses to not fully being able to take in life.

An open-hearted being has wide eyes, and open nostrils to receive life, and to breathe life force energy in.  An open-hearted being has a forehead that is raised in interest and a stance or posture alignment that allows for a natural flow of unhindered inner energies, from a place of confident viewing.   An open-hearted being expresses a tone of voice that is energizing or invigorating to hear, with unashamed in delivery.

So severe was her condition, that she could see only faults when she looked into her own baby daughter’s face.  I grew so accustomed to screwed up narrowed eyes, that it was many years before I saw loving ones and experienced the phenomenal difference.

Life is incredible.   Life is magical.

It is how we receive it, that makes our experience of it so.  To be as fresh as if we just arrived on the planet is the way to live!

Skills to further heighten our senses are available to us…tbc!   : )

There Is No Such Thing As ‘Race’, We Are ‘Breeds’.

  • Why the concept ‘race’ does not suit human being as a classification word
  • Why ‘breed’ works better.
  • Why we are not even divided by language.

There is no such thing as ‘races’ of people.  We are breeds within the human species, and our breed is defined mostly by our Language.

There was never any such thing as ‘Race’ or ‘Human Race’, this was just an overused word that year in Victorian vocabulary deficient English. Seriously.
The only race that was really on was the race for ‘new’ lands, albeit someone else’s;) between Britain and France mostly, as the solution-seeking creativity to assist poverty, misery, and ill-health problems. And it was on this desperate race, the word ‘race’ was then always referred to. : )

The idea of dividing us into four, was a ridiculously simplistic bit of solution-seeking-creativity by a not very bright Britain at the time.;)

We`are still -most of us-largely living from the imagination of 18th century Britain!  There is no where on Earth, that is unaffected by it.

Putting themselves at the top of a list, that ranked Human Beings according to which ‘race’ was ‘superior’, was yet another bit of solution-seeking-creativity, to be able to better their lot at the expense of the ‘inferior’.

We still have not, recognised all of our strengths and all of our qualities.  We are living as a smidgen of ourselves to a life design that was never wise!  What we don’t know though….we don’t know.. : (

This makes as much sense to me, as going along to the R.S.P.C.A, and  regrouping  all of the dogs according to whether they are big, small, spotty or fluffy!;)

“From now on Jess, you are not a labrador, and you are not a chihuahua Sasha, and you over there, Zep, you are not a cattledog.  Francois, you are not a pomeranian either, you are all to be known only as ‘RSPCA dogs, and divided into 4 groups in relation to your size and hair style'”.  Honestly!;)  But who do we choose to guide us across the road, the chihuahua or the labrador?

Language does not divide us…vocabularly does. 

It is our feelings that determine our thoughts.  It is then our thoughts that determine our words.

We are bonded by our healing, and our living from the heart.  All Human Beings living from a state of love, have the same vocabulary,or the same word choice, whatever the language.  Lets do it : )